Speak less

Many times i feel that i'm pessimist person. I Can't make something better in my life although i try to do something as the best i can do, hix.

I feel like fool person, sometime when i talk to somebody my thoughts and my words not match one to another. I dont know why and I dont understand with my self, what happen with me?! That's my thought going error or maybe i'll lose my mind? oh no.. But dumb!! Many time i do that, like something cross my thought to catch the word and process it well. God Please give better way to recover my thought and my self.

When i conscious with my 'Dumb' i decide not to speak more, just shut off my mouth and silent